Poetic Dustbin

A Birthday Message for my Mom in Heaven

I Miss you, Ma...

Sinigang na itlog… I usually call it… This is your recipe, the family’s comfort food… Today is supposed to be your 67th birthday…

There’s not a single day from the time you passed away that I don’t think about you… I see your images lingering in my mind and heart every time I close my eyes… I always picture you walking to and fro asking me what food to cook, how are the kids and if I bought san mig 3-in-1… I miss you so much…

Some people will never know the real pain inside losing a parent when you spent your whole years with them… There is no drama here… only genuine hurt… They may tell you to be strong, God has reasons, Move on and live life… Easier said than done… I can lie to other people and put up a show that everything’s fine and okay… But I can’t lie to myself… I can’t shake the feeling of emptiness and the regrets haunting me each passing day… that i could’ve given you a better life and happier moments when you were still alive… I’m sorry…

Filling up your shoes these days is more than I can handle. i just realized that you’re the most patient person I know and the way you express your love goes way beyond the limits of human emotion… and in my thoughts lately, All I say is “I can do this…” … I know I’m not alone even though I feel alone… I just have to look at the bright side like you always see and do in all of us… I may not always utter these words and I know it’s a bit too late… I love you, Ma… so much…

I’m not happy cause you ain’t here in your birthday… I’m happy in a way because I can attest to the fact and shout out to the world that I had the best loving mother in the whole universe…

Happy Birthday, Ma! I still miss you.. . . .

#ilovemymom

– Poetic Dustbin

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